New insights

Went to a church concert last sat. It had been a while since i last step into a church. Once again been reminded of how I began my walk with God. Interesting questions from the pastor: 1. Are there good people in this world? 2. Are there bad people in this world? Well, both my answers are no. At first my thoughts were how can there be good people because there will definitely be time that man is selfish, jealous or greedy. Secondly, how can there be bad people? Even criminals also love his/her family. I think it is a matter of belief and your stand. And I am right. Pastor also said that there is not so called good or bad people but we are all sinners. 3. Are there sinners in this world? Yes. We are all sinners. But just that we don't even want to face it. Even suddenly at this point, I was abit lost as to why we are called sinners. The pastor began to point out crimes that we think we didn't do in public; our mental thoughts. What hit me most is have you not lied before? Yes, this is one of the reason why I accept God and believe that we are all sinners at the start of time. Well, many would not have agree that we are all sinners. And why should the fault of Adam and Eve befall on us? They were the ones who had ate the fruit of tree and gain the wisdom of good and evil. All these began with greediness and temptation of man giving satan a foothold to dig in and drift man away from God.

Anger in building up in me!!!

I cant believe when my bro questioned me why these things were bought without his acknowledgement. But in the first place did he put his heart in looking after what the family's need? First is the ions cleaner, then the air-cooler. Lucky I told him about the air-cooler before we bought it. Then my dad said he don't like it. We wanted to make him feel comfortable and ended up, we become the one who were blamed. And he said that it was a mistake and he didn't agree to it. So angry with my dad. Should not have spare our thoughts for him to make him feel more comfortable. In the end, blamed by him, then later by my bro saying that he wont pay for the things. Stupid... don't understand them. Me, my sis and my mum should have just pulled ourselves away, far away from all these things. But we just can't. Had been scolded so many times by my dad and yet we are still running errors for him. I really don't wish to have him say thank you to us but please appreciate the things we have done for you. And bro, please take note that it is not that I dont want to talk to you. Is just that every time I talk to you, I see your "angry face" or "why keep me busy face" that really put me off. Also please dont say we didn't tell you these things. Sometimes, things were bought at the very urgent moment and need to be done quick. To be frank, I never think ahead and I am not sure about you. But I believe sis has thought way ahead of me and plan the pave for our benefits. She is calculative not because she wants money. Is just that she cant feel appreciated for the efforts she has done. Please my family give each other some breathing space and stop biting each other. I hated to be in this family too. But can I run from it? I don't think so.